Monday, January 31, 2011

Day 29 - Monday Weigh-In Week #4

Song of the day:  Rihanna ft. Drake - What's My Name?

Lets just get right to it.

1/3/11 - 232.6 lbs

1/10/11 - 224.2 lbs
1/17/11 - 220.8 lbs
1/24/11 - 218.8 lbs
1/31/11 - 217.4 lbs

Weight loss for Week Four: 1.4 lbs
Weight loss Total: 15.2 lbs

I am also taking my measurements every 4 weeks, but I'm not sure where a tape measure is at my parents so that will have to wait.  I'm actually pleasantly surprised that I lost any weight at all!  I ate so much junk this weekend and only exercised twice this past week.  It makes me wonder what I can do this week with my head back in the game!  I am already back to tracking what I'm eating, and eating what I should.  It's crazy to believe that in four weeks I've lost over 15 lbs.  I'm really interested to see what my measurements are going to be.  I haven't shared my measurements because it's too much to type.  But I am measureing my chest, right arm, right thigh, narrowist part of my waist, stomach, and hips.   It's just too much to type and I don't feel like doing it.  I know, lame, but I obviously don't have an issue with "over-sharing" so if you really want to know, I'll be happy to tell you.  I'm pretty sure you can see them on  Worth the curiosity and the amazing information you get for joining  I'll share the inches lost tomorrow.... assuming I find a tape measure.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Day 27/28 - Amazing Weekend!

Song of the day:  Far East Movement - Like a G6

The weekend was amazing!  It was exactly what we needed to recharge our batteries!  We did absolutely nothing.  I recommend this cabin to anyone who wants an amazing weekend!  The only downside was that we decided to go off our eating healthy for the weekend and now I feel icky.  We ate chips and pizza and wings, and now I feel super bloated and I'm not looking forward to weighing-in tomorrow.  It was definitely worth it, but next time we'll get different food. 

Kyle is heading to Utah for (hopefully) the last time!  But with the way the weather looks he may not get out of Madison until Tuesday.  Elliot and I will be in West Salem for the week then Kyle will come up on Saturday.  Then we'll be joining about 99% of the rest of Wisconsin and watching the Packers on Sunday!  I'm hoping this week goes by fast because I'm already missing Kyle.  :(

Friday, January 28, 2011

Day 26

Song of the day:  Spice Girls - Wannabe

Yesterday was awesome!  Kyle got into Tomah an hour earlier than expected so we got to have dinner (stir-fry) at a normal time instead of late.  My mom made the pecan spice cake with maple frosting and it was so good!  The look of it was interesting since the frosting was a new adventure, but it tasted amazing!  My parents got me an additional lense for my camera and I wish I would have brought my camera with so I could take amazing pictures at Percheron Paradise!  Kyle surprised me with a 3 day 2 night trip to a cabin in the middle of woods in the middle of nowhere!  Without Elliot!  I'm so excited!  They provide everything you could possibly need except food.  I have no plans of writing a blog for the next few days so I'll be back either Sunday or Monday.  My Monday weigh-in will probably be a little interesting because I won't be tracking anything this weekend either.  But you know what, it will be worth it!  I'm so excited!!

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Day 25 - It's My Birthday!!!

Song of the day:  The Beatles - Happy Birthday

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!  On day 25 of my weight loss journey I turn 24! 

Yesterday Miranda and I did some cardio then did the Ballet Toning workout at the Snap fitness on Hwy 16 and Gillette.  It was so good!  I rediscovered muscles that I had forgotten about!  Today I feel like I got a really good workout, but I don't feel sore, so that's good!  After our workout we went to Panera to eat.  Did you know that they put their calorie content on their menu?  And on their website they have all of their nutritional information?  How awesome is that?  We were able to make well informed decisions on what we ate, and that always feels good! 

I got to sleep in today!  Happy Birthday to me!!  I'm going to do lunch (at Panera - I really like knowing my nutritional info - I'm so lame) with Becki!  Hopefully I'll get some cardio in today, but if not, it's my birthday!  Kyle is coming back from Minneapolis with some people from work so I am going to pick him up in Tomah around 6:00, then back to my parents for a late birthday dinner!  :):):):) I just got roses delivered to me from Kyle!  Kyle and I have never been together for my birthday so I'm really excited to actually see him!  I'm still not sure what I want to do to celebrate this weekend.  I keep going back and forth between going out and seeing friends on Friday or heading back to Madison and having a weekend alone.  Both great options!  Maybe we'll do both!

I feel like 24 is going to be so different from every other year.  Even though I'm now a wife and mother I am doing so much for myself.  I'm feel really great!  :)

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Day 23/24 - oops!

Song of the day:  Ciara - 1, 2 Step

So I missed writing yesterday.  I just got too busy.  We had to take Kyle to work (since we had picked him up from work Friday and his car was still there) then pack for the week, then go get Kyle (why he didn't meet up at the leasing office we still don't know), signed our lease, took Kyle back to work, then headed to my parents.  Once we got there I loaded all the stuff into the house, fed Elliot, ate lunch, and my mom and I talked.  At 4:45 I left to go get fitted for Miranda's wedding (and I actually am less inches than I thought I was!) then we went for dinner.  After dinner Maria and I went on a 4 hour walk, then her, Fran, and I stood in their kitchen talking for quite a while.  By the time I got back to my parents it was 11:30pm and I had no drive to write anything! 

I'm pretty proud of myself because I took my measurements when I started all this (the only reason I haven't shared them is because it's a lot to type, lol) and I am going to take them once a month.  They are actually about 7 inches total smaller than they were 3 weeks ago!  I also have another month before I have to order my dress since I am really unsure of what size to order since the wedding is 6 1/2 months away.  We also went to Applebee's for dinner and I stuck with water and got the dijon chicken meal off of their under 550 calories part of the menu!  It was really good and I didn't feel like I was deprived.  Maria and I had planned on going for a 2 mile walk, but once it was time to head back to her house we were still in deep conversation and decided to keep walking.  We were freezing by the time we were done, but it was so nice to talk to someone else who is going through the same mom stuff I am! 

Today my mom and I are just hanging out since it's her last week before going back to work (she had both knees replaced 7 weeks ago).  Miranda and I are going to work out at Snap tonight.  They have group classes at this one, so I'm excited for a new workout!  I'm not sure what we're going to eat today, but I feel like I've been doing a good job in portion control so far this week, even though I haven't been super rigid with planning.  I think that shows that it's easier to integrate what I'm doing into a lifestyle change instead of the diet mentality.  I do feel like this has gotten harder as the weeks go on, because I'm making food instead of putting in a pizza.  So if I don't feel like cooking it really limits what's available to eat.  I'm hoping though that this week is going to help me recommit to this whole lifestyle.  -and I only have a month until I have to order a dress so I have to keep going strong!

Monday, January 24, 2011

Day 22 - Monday Weigh-In Week #3

Song of the day:  Wicked - Defying Gravity

I kind of let myself go this weekend.  There's something about football games that makes me want to snack!  I had healthier snacks than I normally would, but I still went way over my calorie intake.  I can also feel that I went over my sodium intake.  I'm going to need to up my water today because I can feel the water weight on my body.  Ick.  Even though I'm kicking myself for letting go this weekend, I'm glad I did.  Now I know that I definitely don't want to live like that anymore.  I just feel gross today.  I'm exhausted and my body just doesn't feel right.  - and I even ate healthier snacks than I normally would!  


1/3/11 - 232.6 lbs
1/10/11 - 224.2 lbs
1/17/11 - 220.8 lbs
1/24/11 - 218.8 lbs

Weight loss for Week Three:  2.0 lbs
Weight loss Total: 13.8 lbs

I didn't get to my cardio yesterday because of the Packer game (worth it!) and that partnered with my eating habits over the weekend makes me annoyed.  I know that if I would have stuck to it, I would have lost more weight.  I know I'm not going to be able to lose 11.8 lbs by Thursday (my birthday), at least not the right way, so I'm giving up that goal and changing it to being 207 lbs by the end of February.  I think that is much more attainable, but the goal was a good one to help me jump start my weight loss!  Also, in 3 weeks I've lost more than I have in years so I have a ton to be positive about!

For dinner tonight we are going to have sauteed halibut with romesco sauce.  Except we're switching out halibut for tilapia because Copps didn't have any halibut.  We also need to go to Whole Foods tonight and look for some lactose-free dairy products that I need to make my lactose-free birthday cake!  I'm making pecan spice cake with maple frosting!  It may seem a little backwards that I'm making my own birthday cake, but I am kind of looking forward to making a cake from scratch!  - and one that won't kill Kyle!  I'm going to do a workout video today so I don't have to worry about squeezing in a workout after our Whole Foods trip.  

Alright!  I'm looking forward to this next week!!

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Day 21- GO PACK GO!!

Song of the day:  Higher Education Presents: Fly Like a Cheesehead

My husband eats out all the time for work, doesn't work out, and has still lost 7 lbs.  How is that fair?  I feel like we're living one of those 'slim quick' commercials where the husband shrinks everywhere and the wife changes just a little bit.  Kyle has less to lose than me, but the male metabolism makes me want to throw something.  

The food we had yesterday was amazing!  The filet mignon was so good!  I also had two glasses of wine with dinner and I could tell that I haven't had anything to drink in a while because I was repeating myself a lot, lol.  What sucks is that because I was a little tipsy I felt that I needed to eat something more and went for the guacamole with a tortilla.  It's healthier that some of the snacks that I would typically eat when trying to sober up, but it still put me over my calorie intake.  I did an hour of cardio and strength training yesterday so I feel like I had a little bit of a calorie cushion, but I am kicking myself about those extra calories today.

This morning I got to sleep in because Kyle is an amazing dad and husband, but I'm running out of time to get things done.  Sorry for the short entry, but I got to make some food (today we are having chicken fajitas for the game, then guacamole bacon burgers for dinner), get my work out in, then it's time to watch the Packers kill the Bears!!!  -and my jersey is starting to look too big!


Saturday, January 22, 2011

Day 20 - rewards

Song of the day:  Flo Rida - Who Dat Girl ft. Akon

On I read a lot of blogs about people giving themselves mini-goals and rewards for reaching their goals.  I'm all about mini-goals, one of mine being 207lbs by my birthday (which looks like it may have been a lofty goal), and rewards are fine, but I think the best reward is being down to my goal weight and healthy.  One thing that bothers me is when people use junk food, or food in general, as a reward.  It's like giving food power over you.  And isn't it kind of counter productive?  Yes, I'm finally 207 lbs, now I get to eat a whole chocolate cake?  How does that make sense?  I think if you want chocolate cake, then just eat it, but eat the right portion.  

Yesterday I did the '10 Minute Solution: Fat Blasting Dance Mix' video on Netflix.  Instead of doing one 10 minute workout, I did all 5.  They were really fun and got my heart pumping!  Today I get to go back to Snap and I'm excited about that!  We are also making real food again for lunch and dinner.  For lunch we are going to have guacamole bacon burgers (again) and for dinner we are having the filet mignon that we were going to have last week.  I'm even allowing myself a glass of red wine with dinner (since I have to use it to cook with anyway :)).  

Yesterday I also got some great news - I got into UW-Whitewater!  I start this summer!  It feels great to finally have a plan in action to get done with school!  My excitement has been started to deflate with worry when I think about what going back to school means.  The main worries are paying for school and getting Elliot a day care provider.  I know we can get loans, but I'm still worried about getting them.  Also our rent will be going up (we also found a place we really like) and to add the expense of day care just makes me nervous about money.  -and the whole idea of someone else taking care of Elliot, someone that I don't even know, makes me nauseous.  I know we'll be fine because Kyle has a really good job, and we made sure our budget could fit this before we made decisions, but I'm still nervous.  It's just a new change in our lives.  I feel like every year we have a big change in our lives, and I get all nervous, and then everything's fine and even better than I expected.  Praying for calm nerves... and for the Packers to win on Sunday!

Friday, January 21, 2011

Day 19

Song of the day:  Jill Sobule - Supermodel

I realized that I haven't really been writing what I'm eating, and it's because it's not all that interesting.  All week for lunch I've had a peanut butter and green olive sandwich.  Yeah, cringe if you like, but it's really good!  For dinner one night I had a whole bowl of hummus with sliced mushrooms.  Another night I had some Life cereal.  I haven't gone over my calorie allowance, I've even gone under on some days, but I haven't really been eating like an adult either.  When Kyle's gone I just don't really feel like making food.  Bring in last night.  Kyle was flying somewhere between Atlanta and Milwaukee for dinner, but I decided to make adult food anyway.  I had a chicken breast that I seasoned with a tiny bit of salt, pepper, and lemon peel.  I dipped it in sriracha sauce, which is one of my favorite flavors!  I also had a side of asparagus with toasted almonds.  It was so good!  And the whole meal was only 353 calories!  

Yesterday I did strength training with the assistance of the swiss ball, and did the 'Crunch: Fat Burning Dance Party' video on Netflix.  I'm not sure if sitting on the ball when I'm on the computer is really doing anything, but yesterday morning (while Elliot was napping) I was listening to some Pandora radio while "dancing" on the ball.  It took a while to be able to type and bounce at the same time, but thankfully the little red squiggly line tells me when I spell something wrong.  Like I said, I'm not sure how much the ball is really helping me, but it's more activity than if I was sitting on a regular chair.  

Tonight we are going to look at some new apartments.  We really like the place we have now, and it has EVERYTHING on our wish list, except for the location.  We're just really far from Madison, and I'm (hopefully) going back to school in the fall to either Whitewater or MATC and it's just too far of a drive.  I need to make a grocery list for the next 3 days so we can go grocery shopping after our viewings.  I think I will make what I had last night for dinner tonight.  If I don't plan something I will end up suggesting we go out to eat.  I'm really trying to not go out to eat (with the exception of my birthday, because I don't want to cook) until I'm half-way through my weight loss journey.  Normally when we are out during dinner time, or anytime close, we go out to eat.  I fear that we could easily talk ourselves into going out to eat and saying that we're going to make healthy choices.  I'm just not sure we will, not yet at least.  

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Day 18: grapefruits are not oranges

Song of the day:  Nelly - Just a Dream

Grapefruits don't eat like oranges.  

I have a bunch of fruit sitting on a decorative plate on our table.  A bunch that I thought included one orange and two grapefruit.  When I cut into the "orange" I quickly realized it was a grapefruit.  Typically when I eat a grapefruit I peel the outside then individually peel each section away from it's little holder.  Most people will cut it in half, then cut away from the membrane then sugar and spoon out each triangle.  I learned the overkill peel technique from my dad.  It takes longer to eat the grapefruit that way so it gives your body time to get full, or at least feel satisfied.  Also it's so much work you don't feel like eating another one.  So here I was with a grapefruit cut in half and me not wanting to eat it with a spoon.  I decided to just keep cutting and eat it like an orange.  Because of the little pockets that you would normally cut the grapefruit away from it was hard to eat some of the sections.  About half of the pieces formed these nice 5-star restaurant looking grapefruit wedges.  The other half was this mesh of fruit and skin and I had to use my teeth to strip out the fruit.  Either way I the grapefruit was still very good, just a very odd eating experience.  This morning I googled "grapefruit" and got the wikipedia entry giving me a new idea of how to slice it.  I'll probably try it sometime this week since I know the other two pieces of fruit left are definitely grapefruits.  

I'm feeling a million times better than I have been for the past week!  Yesterday I even did the 'Crunch: Cardio Sculpt' video on Netflix.  It's totally dated as far as attire goes, but it's definitely a nice 30 minute workout.  Kyle is coming home tonight, so I can finally get back to Snap!  I'm really liking working out, but I'm realizing that I'm also really liking time to myself.  I know that for the time that I'm there, no one will ask me anything.  It's time alone, even though I'm with another 3-12 other people.  

I'm still nervous about hitting my goal of 207 lbs by my birthday.  But when I was looking in the mirror this morning I realized that I will be a healthier 207 lbs (or so) than I was the last time I was that weight.  I mean, it's still an unhealthy weight for me, but it's better than it was before.  It's weird how differently I think of weight when it's going down versus when it's going up.  When I saw 221 lbs when I was gaining, even though I was pregnant and supposed to gain weight, it was still a shock and unwanted.  Now I'm excited to see 221 lbs.  It's all in perspective.  

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Day 17 - Women's Troubles

Song of the day: Billy Joel - We Didn't Start the Fire
Bonus song of the day: The Office - Ryan Started the Fire

Warning: This entry contains content that may be uncomfortable for some to read.  Continue at your own risk.

Good news:  I'm not pregnant (this was a slight worry).  Not that we don't want to have more kids, but I would first like to lose weight before I start gaining again.

Bad news:  What I thought was the flu was actually my PMS symptoms.  

I had never really had PMS because I started the pill when I was young to deal with acne and how heavy, painful, and often I got my period.  I have tried every kind of pill and I gained 10 lbs with each new dosage, so after Elliot was born I didn't want to go back on anything.  I am not on any real schedule at all.  For the first few months I got my period ever 20-25 days, then it was 40 days, and this time it was 39 days.  Before my last few cycles I would get headaches and cramps, but tylenol typically took care of them, even though I would still feel a little crappy.  These past few days have been horrendous.  Tylenol did nothing for my headaches.  I even took a muscle relaxant and that did nothing.  It was constantly pounding and movement made it worse.  Now, this was partnered with a cold and me getting over an infection because I did have a fever.  All the sudden, yesterday morning it was gone and replaced by serious cramps - which have continued into today.  I've tried heating pads, tylenol, then finally a muscle relaxant, and nothing seemed to really help.  It's ridiculous.  They hurt so bad I feel like I could throw up.  My symptoms have just gotten worse with every cycle, but I really don't want to go on any medication because of the inevitable weight gain.  I'm never the lucky person who can site "weight loss" as a side effect of medication.  On the other hand, I don't know what to do, and I really think that going back on the pill is my only option.  Also, being on the pill prevents any "oops" moments, and I don't have to worry for the rest of the month if I'm pregnant or not.

In news other than my menstrual cycle, I'm feeling much better and cannot wait to get back into working out!  The biggest loser is always a good way to get re-inspired of my goal!  Spoiler Alert: I CANNOT believe those two brothers gained 9 lbs each!  That's insane!  I would have voted to kick them both off the show!  I did get in some strength training exercises with a swiss ball (big bouncy ball).  We got it when I was super pregnant and my back hurt sitting on anything else.  I now put the ball in front of my computer so I get a little bitty work out when I'm on the computer.  Which is almost always.  I also put up the exercise poster it came with in the living room as a reminder of what I could be doing instead of sitting on the couch. Well, I made the last egg for breakfast, and the only fresh food left is asparagus and some potatoes.  I need some more color on my plate, so it looks like we're going to the grocery store today!

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Day 16

Song of the day:  Crush - Jellyhead  

This entry isn't going to be too exciting.  I'm still sick, but I'm feeling better than yesterday.  Unfortunately I sleep horribly when Kyle is gone so I'm on about 5 hours of sleep and exhausted.  I'm hoping today is the last day of my sickness funk.  We have some chicken breasts so I think I may make the pan-fried chicken fingers with spicy dipping sauce again.  It's seriously my perfect comfort food.

It finally stopped snowing so maybe we'll make a trip out to the grocery store.  Yesterday I didn't do any official cardio, but I did super clean our downstairs.  It hadn't been deep cleaned since Kyle started his trips (beginning of November) and we've been living out of suitcases when we are home on the weekends.  Elliot had found every random speck of whatever that was on the floor and unnoticeable to the adult eye.  Now I'm sure there's nothing on the ground and I don't have to say, "Elliot what are you putting in your mouth?" as much.  Cleaning burns calories, so it's practically cardio... right?  Lol.  Either way, it's a slow moving start to get back into exercising.  I'll be doing some videos at home since Snap doesn't have baby-care, and I've already done the calculations and there's no way I could put him in the baby bjorn and go on the treadmill.  Which is slightly unfortunate because I'm sure carrying an extra 20 lbs while walking would bump up the calories burned!

Monday, January 17, 2011

Day 15 - Monday Weigh-In Week #2

Song of the day: Aqua - Barbie Girl  ... oh how I miss the 90's, lol ....

I'm still feeling like crap.  I'm not really sure what's wrong.  I'm still waiting for my fever to break.  Due to being sick I didn't get any cardio in.  I'm a little nervous about weighing myself since I only worked out four days this past week.  But I guess that's how life is and I'd have to deal with a sick week at some point.  I learned that if I'm sick, Kyle is good for making one meal per weekend.  For lunch we had left overs and we had planned to have filet mignon for dinner.  Well, 6:00 came around and coverage of the Golden Globes started, which meant that I was doing nothing, and Kyle was not too interested in cooking.  Instead we ordered chinese.  Normally I would get something like sesame shrimp with wonton soup and pot-stickers.  That is a ton of food and I would make it last for two or three meals when in reality it's probably five or six meals, maybe more.  Last night I got steamed shrimp with steamed vegetables and white wine sauce on the side.  It's under the diet section of the menu.  An area I previously didn't know to exist.  I ate a small portion and am saving the rest to eat for lunch and dinner today since Kyle is in Alabama for work.  This also means that I am home alone with a child that has enough energy to power a small village even when he's sick.  I don't know how many new recipes I'm going to try since I'm not in any mood to go to the grocery store, but we'll see.  Hopefully I start feeling better soon!

Now for why everyone is actually reading...

1/3/11 - 232.6 lbs
1/10/11 - 224.2 lbs
1/17/11 - 220.8 lbs

Weight loss for Week Two:  3.4 lbs
Weight loss Total: 11.8 lbs

Not as high as last week, but weight gone is weight gone!!!  I'm kind of re-thinking my goal of 207 lbs by my birthday (10 days) but it's still something to aim for!  I cannot believe I'll be 24 in 10 days.  It seems unreal.  In a way I feel so much older than that, and at the same time I feel like the past three years just flew by!  I just want to kick myself because if all of the times that I had decided I was going to lose weight, I would have just done it, and stuck with it, I could have been facing my 24th birthday as a much healthier me.  Ugh, ten days!

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Day 14- hit a wall, or a wall hit me

Song of the day:  The Cranberries - Zombie

I'm feeling slightly better than I did yesterday, but not really all that better at all.  My headache is still there, but now it only seems to hurt when I move.  All off my joints are still swollen so moving seems weird.  I definitely feel like I'm on the upswing compared to how I felt yesterday. I slept all day except for about 5 hours.  Kyle did the grocery shopping and cooked dinner.  The dinner of pan-fried chicken fingers with spicy dipping sauce.  Instead of using 3 cups of a flaky cereal we used 2 cups of cereal and 1 cup of slivered almonds.  It gave them this whole other taste that was almost a little sweet.  We also only fried them for about 2 minutes on each side then baked them the rest of the was so they were more crunchy and not soaked in oil.  

Today we are going to have leftovers for lunch and for dinner we are having peppercorn-crusted filet mignon with port jus with a side of asparagus and mashed potatoes.  It pretty much looks amazing and I can't wait!  It's also a nice fancy meal to eat while watching the Golden Globes!  I'm a sucker for all things award shows.  

I didn't work out yesterday and I'm not working out today.  I would really like to, but every step I take I can feel the pounding reverb in my head.  I'm not too optimistic about my weigh in tomorrow, but I understand that I'm sick and there's only so much that I can do.  But still, I wish I had one more day this week.

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Day 13

Song of the day: Josie and the Pussycats - Three Small Words

I was a little nervous that I hadn't planned out what to eat yesterday.  Especially since I knew we didn't have much at home.  That is pretty much a recipe for a McDonald's drive through meal.  But I made it through and ate at home!  For lunch I had a chicken breast and a potato (that I cut into fries and baked).  Since that's really all we have in the house it's also what I made Kyle and myself for dinner.  Except for dinner I marinated the chicken in red-wine vinegar, extra virgin olive oil, garlic, and oregano.  It's the same marinade recipe from the greek style pork chops that we had at my parents house this past week.  

I worked out after Kyle and I had dinner, and it felt great!  I've been doing speed walking on the treadmill because I just wasn't feeling up to running yet, but last night I did run for a couple of minutes!  I actually felt like running!  I think that's a huge step for me.  It really shows me that my body is improving and getting healthier.  When I got home I took a shower and then got ready for bed.  At about 11:00 it hit me.  Terrible terrible migraine/tension headache mixed with terrible terrible sinus pressure.  I tried to just sleep it off, but I couldn't get comfortable.  Finally at about 4:00 I took some tylenol and that helped a little bit.  It at least took of the edge so I could fall asleep.  I woke up this morning not feeling much better, and my whole body feels swollen.  My plans for today were to go work out then go grocery shopping, but I think I'll wait and see if that actually happens.  

For lunch today we are going to have shrimp stir-fry.  I don't have a recipe link for this because it's something that I've always made.  For dinner we are going to have pan-fried chicken fingers with spicy dipping sauce and sweet potato fries.  It looks really good and seems like a good game-day food.  GO PACK GO!!

Friday, January 14, 2011

Day 12- TGIF

Song of the day:  Antoine Dodson - Bed Intruder

Yesterday totally sucked.  Elliot still wasn't feeling good, I started feeling worse, and I drank half a diet coke.  I have a really hard time saying no to myself when I don't feel good.  Originally I didn't want to drink soda until I was 180lbs, but I just really really wanted one.  The plus side is that it's diet so there's no calories (or really anything else) but I just wanted to give up soda because it's not that great for you.  I didn't get in my workout.  I was totally planning on going and doing a really light cardio workout, then Elliot threw up on me.  For the second time.  Right as I was putting him to bed.  At that point I just wanted to get in the shower and go to bed.  I'm just hoping today goes better!

We are heading back home today, so I'm not completely sure what we're going to have for dinner.  I do know that we need to do some major grocery shopping because there's just about nothing in our fridge.  Kyle won't be home until late so I'm on my own for dinner.  Normally that would mean that I would order pizza or grab mcdonald's, but not anymore!  I'm thinking that a chicken breast, baked potato, and broccoli sounds good!  - and then I don't have to go to the grocery store, so even better!  I'm going to get my cardio in before we leave so I don't have to worry about trying to get it in after Kyle gets home.  I'm so ready for Kyle to get home, for the weekend to be here!  Hopefully I get rid of this cold and then I can get back to being excited about losing weight (or doing anything, lol).

PS: Did anyone else read about the changing of zodiac signs??  I don't really read my horoscope, but still!  First Pluto, now horoscopes.  What's the world coming to?

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Day 11 - yay winter colds :/

Song of the day:  Taylor Swift - Long Live

Elliot's sporting a pretty intense cold and the combination of snot and coughing has made him not able to eat his cereal without throwing up or gagging.  I feel so bad for him because he just wants to keep going but you can see in his eyes that he feels icky.  The only plus side of him having a cold is that he just wants to be in my lap and cuddle.  Due to him being sick I had to cancel my walk with Maria.  Hopefully Elliot will be feeling better today so we can go tonight!

The spicy shrimp noodle bowl was a hit - no surprise there!  For dinner tonight we are going to have mushroom and provolone patty melts.  It's hard to believe that there is only 416 calories in it!  I'm hoping to get in my 1/2 hour of cardio today, but I'm starting to feel like I'm coming down with what Elliot has, and I just feel drained.  I'm not really sure what the protocol is on working out while getting sick.  Part of me thinks you shouldn't because you're body should focus on healing, but the other part thinks that you should because then your body is working and healthier.  I think I'll have to google this.

Kyle is flying back from Utah tonight, but won't get in until late and then he is going to Milwaukee tomorrow, so Elliot and I are heading back home tomorrow afternoon.  I'm going to plan out dinners and lunches for this weekend and I'm excited to try some more new stuff!  All of my recipes for the last two weeks have came from the October issue of Cooking Light Magazine, and I have 5 months worth of magazines to pick through!  The hardest park is picking just one!

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Day 10 - I'm a firework. Katy Perry told me so.

Song of the day: Katy Perry- Firework

When I wrote yesterday I wasn't aware that my dad had taken the leftover chicken with lemon-leek linguine to work with him, so instead I had an avocado, 1 oz brie cheese, and wheat crackers.  The avocado/brie mix was really good!  For my snack I had another glass of low-sodium v8 juice and half an apple.  I had plans to eat the whole apple, but the truth is, I don't really like apples.  Carbs tend to get a bad rep since the whole atkins diet, but they're still good for you.  I am aiming at 163-236g of carbs a day, but every day I fall significantly short.  I just don't really like sweet things.  I am trying to eat more fruit, but I'm just not a huge fan.  I really do like pears, but there's only so many pears you can eat in a week.  Ideally I would like to eat breads for carbs, but they also come with calories, so it looks like I'm going to have to stick to fruit!  The greek-style pork chops were really good!  I made sure that I put a serving aside for lunch today!  I've always really like mediterranean style cooking, so I could definitely eat that again.  What I really like about it (and with a lot of the cooking light recipes) is that they don't have cheese in them.  My husband is allergic to lactose (no, not lactose intolerant, actually allergic as in anaphylactic grab-an-epipen shock) and I don't want him to die.  It's probably good for me that he can't eat cheese, because I love cheese and would put it on EVERYTHING.  Twice. 

I got in my cardio work out in before the biggest loser so after dinner I was able to relax for the rest of the night.  I wasn't tired when I went there, but as soon as I got on the treadmill I felt exhausted.  It was the first time since starting this that I was really watching the clock tick down.  I don't know why I was so tired, but hopefully today goes better!  I am going to do my strength training and instead of an hour of cardio I am only going to do 1/2 an hour since I am going on a 2-mile walk with Maria tonight!  Mommy night out!  One of the greatest things about writing this blog has been the positive comments and support that I've gotten from friends and family!  It's definitely helped me when I feel like eating something I shouldn't or not going to work out.  

For breakfast I had an egg, piece of toast, and coffee.  For lunch I am going to have greek-style pork chops leftovers!  I CANNOT wait!  I am going to introduce my parents to the spicy shrimp noodle bowl with cucumber salad for dinner!  Kyle and I had it a week ago and I've been craving it every since!  My mom is also making the cooking light magazine's basic banana bread recipe today.  It looks really good, and it has all-spice in it (which smells kind of like chai tea), so I'm really excited to try it!  I'm way under on my minimum calorie intake today, so I can afford a slice of banana bread - maybe even two!  Oh to dream. :)

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Day 9 - Waka Waka

Song of the day: Shakira - Waka Waka

Yesterday we ended up having the chicken and lemon-leek linguine for dinner.  It's so good, but would have been better if I had remembered that I was increasing the amount of noodles and therefore should increase the amount of everything else.  Lol, small snafoo  (um, spelling?).  When Kyle and I first got married I was so used to cooking for six (me, my parents, and three brothers), that I had to train myself how to cook for two.  Then I had to train myself how to actually cook for two.  Now I'm trying to remember how to cook for five!

My original goal was to do 30 minutes of cardio every day with strength training 3x a week (Monday, Wednesday/Thursday, Saturday).  I really liked what I did last Saturday so I decided to change it up and do that work out on my strength training days.  I know that week 1's weight loss is not what I can expect to lose every week, but I really want to make sure that I keep the numbers going down this week.  I've been making sure I mentally check myself with everything I'm doing to make sure that I'm not becoming obsessed with counting calorie in-tack vs. burned.  I think it's really easy to go from over-indulging in food to over-indulging in obsessive behavior when it comes to food and exercise.

Today I am going to try and get my work out in before dinner because the biggest loser is on tonight!  I had never watched an episode before last week and now I'm hooked.  I just keep reminding myself, if they can do it, I can do it.

I changed up my breakfast a little bit and had a piece of toast with peanut butter, a small orange, and a glass of low-sodium tomato juice.  For lunch I'm going to have left over chicken and lemon-leek linguine.  I have an avocado that needs to be eaten, so I'll have that for a snack this afternoon.  I'm really excited for dinner!  We are going to try greek-style pork chops!  It's nice because the recipe is just a lot of prep work and the only real cooking is the pork chops.  Don't get me wrong, I love cooking, but I really love the taste of fresh veggies too!  We'll have to go do some grocery shopping to get some pitas!

Monday, January 10, 2011

Day 8 - Monday Weigh-In

Yesterday's work out felt really good.  My body is finally starting to realize what's going on, and I'm actually enjoying and looking forward to getting to work out.  The tomato-citrus salmon we had last night was really good!  I'm always wonder if I'm cooking salmon correctly since it comes with the scales on, but it turned out really good.  I was also worried if Kyle was going to like it or not because he's not a huge fan of tomatoes or green olives.  Surprisingly he ate the whole thing and actually liked it!  I was prepared to take all his green olives for him, but there wasn't anything left on his plate!  Okay, now time for the moment of truth...

1/3/11 - 232.6 lbs.
1/10/11 - 224.2 lbs.

Weight loss for Week One: 8.4 lbs!!!!

I feel awesome!!!  In the past I would have starved myself and worked out until I wanted to pass out and only see the scale move maybe 2 lbs.  It's just great to know that I'm losing weight!  I am far from even close to being done, but this definitely makes me want to continue forward!  

Today I am going to stay with my parents until Friday morning since Kyle is going to Utah for work.  I am bringing with me all of my cooking light magazines so I'm not entirely sure what we're going to eat for dinner.  There's so much new stuff that I want to try, but I also want to share some of last weeks recipes with my family.  I'm pretty sure they would all love the spicy shrimp noodle bowl!  I am going to have the prosciutto, pear, and blue cheese sandwich for lunch, possibly minus the pear depending on if my parents have one, and I cannot wait!  That has to be one of the best things I have ever tasted!  

Time to go feed Elliot, eat breakfast, then hit the road!

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Day 7 - last day of the week!

Song of the day: Wisin Y Yandel ft Nelly Furtado - Sexy Movimiento Remix

Yesterday's work out totally kicked my butt!  I can still feel it in my arms!  I did 20 minutes on the bike, then one rep of strength training, 20 minutes on the elliptical, another rep of strength training, 20 minutes on the treadmill, then some deep stretching.  I feel like I had an intense workout, but I don't feel like I am sore or hurt.  In the past I would work out until my body gave out, then I was so sore the next day that I didn't want to go work out again.  This past fall when I had an "I'm going to get in shape!" burst I did an hour of intense cardio every day.  By the end of day 5 my knees hurt so bad that it was making sleeping uncomfortable.  My mom recently had both of her knees replaced due to arthritis and I started wondering if I had arthritis!  The pain lasted for about a month.  It was so bad that I had to take tylenol to be able to sleep.  It started to go away a couple weeks ago and I realized that the pain was from over-extending my knees.  That's part of the reason that I've decided to slowly get back into working out.  I'm only doing half an hour of cardio a day because I don't want my body to freak out.  Lets face it, I'm out of shape and my body doesn't need the shock of a week of intense workouts.  Also, when I make a goal of working out for an hour, it's easier for me to not go if I convince myself I don't have the time.

The guacamole bacon burgers were so good!  We also had sweet potato fries as a side and dipped them in more guacamole.  I love guacamole and could eat it everyday, but oh man, this stuff gives you really bad morning breath, lol.  We are having the same thing for lunch today.  For dinner we are having tomato-citrus salmon, and oh my, it looks so good!  I am trying to get more fish into our diets.  My goal is to have 2-3 fish dinners a week, and this week we will!  Even though weeks are typically Sunday- Saturday, we are viewing weeks as Monday-Sunday.  It's so much easier to start a weight loss plan on a Monday, at least for me.

My first weigh-in is tomorrow morning, and I'm a little nervous.  Since I know I am weighing myself tomorrow morning I really want to work out a ton today and eat nothing, but I know that won't be real weight loss, and my body will probably think that it's starving and hold onto water and anything that I eat.  I'm trying not to let it effect what I'm eating today.  I'm trying to eat as normal as possible, and workout how I normally would.  Real weight loss ("real" being weight loss that will stay off) is a slow process, 1-2 lbs a week, right?  I need to keep that in the forefront of my mind today!

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Day 6 - Hello Weekend!!

Song of the day: Lady Gaga - Starstruck

I've been getting a lot of messages asking for recipes, so I went back and added links to the recipes!

Yesterday went a lot better than Thursday as far as hunger went!  The prosciutto, pear, and blue cheese sandwich was the best sandwich I have had in a long time!   For my snack I had the second serving of the brie, apple, and spinach quesadilla.  Unfortunately, I didn't get in any strength training or cardio because I feel asleep (on our living room floor) at 8:30!  I had gone down there with intentions to stretch before I went to work out and did the yoga pose "sleeping lady" (not an actual pose).  Elliot woke up about 6, so Kyle went in and repositioned him and put his nook back in his mouth.  We then all slept until 9:30!!!  Even though I wish I would have worked out last night, I obviously needed the extra sleep!

For breakfast we had cinnamon-pecan pancakes (just added a serving of pecan's and 1tsp of cinnamon to regular pancake batter), and they were really good!  Lunch is going to be leftover sauteed chicken breasts with pico de gallo and cilantro lime rice.  Last night I wasn't too sure about that meal since the chicken seemed kind of lame, but it was really good!  I used green onion instead of white for the pico de gallo because I didn't have white onion.  Also I squeezed some fresh lime juice into the rice in addition to the lime zest.  Dinner tonight is going to be guacamole bacon burgers (with turkey bacon and turkey burgers) with baked sweet potato fries.  I've made this dinner before and it's one of our favorites!

Since I missed my workouts yesterday I'm going to do the missed 1/2 hour of strength training and 1/2 hour of cardio on top of my 1/2 hour of cardio today.  I have a feeling it's a good thing that I got all that sleep last night!

Friday, January 7, 2011

Day 5 - getting my GTL on.

Song of the day: Jersey Shore- Crazy Theme Song  ... I know, I know...

So, yesterday was really hard.  Because I wanted to eat food from home, and I don't have access to a microwave in Milwaukee, I had to change up my snack and lunch.  I added an extra little snack of a serving of brie, apple, and spinach quesadilla (really good!), but because I had eaten at weird times I was still feeling hungry from 4-6.  I'm glad to say that I fought through it and didn't snack on anything else, which is definitely something that I would have done previously.  This is normally the time during a "diet" that I give up and let myself eat just a little more or something to "tide me over" and then before I know it I've had a whole extra meal.  I don't think that this is the last day I'll struggle, but I'm glad that I got through it successfully.  To get through it I drank some water and watched the Jersey Shore.... yup... and we watched the season premiere, lol.  

Today we have to go to Milwaukee again and this time for a longer appointment, so I'm bringing lunch with me instead of just a snack.  For lunch I'm having prosciutto, pear, and blue cheese sandwich, and it looks amazing!  Hopefully it makes it to Milwaukee!  The chicken with lemon leek linguine we had for dinner last night was so good!  I had never had a leek before (at least not to my knowledge) but I really liked it!  Such a different flavor.  Tonight we are going to have sauteed chicken breasts with pico de gallo and cilantro lime rice.  Yesterday was also hard because Kyle had to work late, so we had dinner later, and I thought the jersey shore premiere started at 8, then realized it started at 9, so it was 10 before I was ready to go work out.  But I changed and got my butt to snap because I knew if I let myself not go it would be the first step to letting myself get away with slacking in other areas.  Plus I had to get my GTL on.  HA!  Bad joke....  Fist Pump!!

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Day 4

G-G-Get up and move song of the day: Miley Cyrus - See You Again

"No show" gym socks + tennis shoes + treadmill = big blisters on the back of my ankles.  Looks like I'm going to have to dig to the bottom of my sock drawer and break out the crew cut socks!  Other than that yesterday went really well!  I got in both strength training and cardio AND I was under on calories, and didn't feel like I was deprived.  The spicy shrimp noodle bowl was AMAZING!!!!!  The cucumber salad was also really good!  I will definitely be making that meal again!  

Today Elliot has a post-surgery appointment in Milwaukee and I would normally get a "fancy coffee" (latte of some sort with lots of flavoring, whip cream, and toppings) and scone for breakfast and some sort of fast food for lunch (probably Hardee's ham and cheese sandwich, sub the fries for onion rings, and a diet coke - ooohhhh, so good).  But not today!  I had my normal breakfast of 1 egg over-easy, 1 piece of toast w/ a tsp of butter, 2 pieces of turkey bacon, and 1 cup of coffee.  I am bringing with me a snack of 1/4 cup of naked almonds and 1/2 a grapefruit.  Then I'll eat lunch later in the day when we get home (left over spicy shrimp noodle bowl!!!).  I am also going to bring 2 water bottles full of water so I'm not tempted to stop somewhere because I need something to drink.  For dinner tonight we are having Chicken with Lemon-Leek Linguine with mixed greens salad ("Dinner Tonight." Cooking Light. October: p 96).  It looks really good and we've really like all our new meals this week, so hopefully this one is good too!  

I feel like I've lost weight, and I really really really want to step on the scale, but I know that if I do, and I haven't lost what I feel like, that I'll just be let down.  We started watching "The Biggest Loser" and this morning I watched MTV's "I used to be fat" and these people loose like 14-30lbs in a week!!  I know that a lot of the ones who lose a ton weigh a lot more than I do, and that they have personal trainers who are kicking their butts daily, but how awesome would that be?!  Okay, back to realistic goals, I hope that I lose 8lbs this week.  Fingers crossed! - lol, and I still have 4 days until my weekly weigh-in!  

Alright, time to drive!!

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Day 3

Day 3 - Still going strong!  I'm waiting for the freak out, but it hasn't happened yet!  I attribute that to the website  It's a free weight loss website where you can track everything you eat, water drank, calories burned, and lots more.  Kinda like the weight watchers website, but free!  I'm really excited for dinner tonight!  We're going to have Spicy Shrimp Noodle Bowl with cucumber salad ( "Dinner Tonight." Cooking Light. October: 88) and it looks amazing!  The cider-glazed chicken was really good!  I made up our plates and Kyle looked at it and said, "that's it!"  and I said, "yes honey, that's 1 serving."  I thought the same thing the first time I really looked at portions.  It's amazing how much we really overeat.  That's always been my problem.  Don't get me wrong, my favorite foods are pizza and tacos, but I don't really like sweet things, and I eat pretty healthy foods.  The problem is that I eat WAY too much of those foods.  Take last night for instance.  I made 4 servings of food and normally Kyle and I would have each had 2 servings.  Granted 1 serving is only 333 calories, I also didn't typically make super healthy food.  On Monday we had tacos, but I stuck to just 1 serving - 2 tacos, 622 calories - YIKES!  Even worse, normally I would have had SIX tacos!  That's 1822 calories!!  That's a whole days worth of calories that I would have at the end of the day, with no activity after I ate!!!  Now, don't get me wrong, I knew that 6 tacos was way more that 1 serving, but I ate until I was stuffed.  I  also have this complex about food (and I'm pretty sure that this goes for A LOT of people) that I feel like I need to finish A: everything that's on my plate, even if I'm full, and B: everything that I made.  Taco shells come in a package of 12, so I felt like Kyle and I each needed to eat 6 tacos otherwise the unused shells would go to waste.  I hate throwing away food because there are so many people that go without, but there's not really an option of buying just 4 shells.  That being said, it will be a long time before we have tacos again because they are so calorie packed, so I won't need to worry about that for a while. 

I definitely feel better.  My body feels clearer, if that makes sense.  And really, I'm not hungry.  I know, eating right and exercising makes you feel better and lose weight? - CRAZY!?!  Well, here's to another day!

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

An Inconvenient Truth

I noticed that there are quite a few "views" on my blog and I feel like I need to be honest with everyone, and with myself, why I am writing this blog and what I have, through simple neglect, gotten myself into.  I've been trying to pin down what made me finally decide that enough was enough.

1. There are, maybe, 5 pictures of Elliot and me.  I'm too grossed out by the way I look to take pictures with my son.  I can't help but crying when I read that, but it's so true.  If I were to die tomorrow in some freak accident he and Kyle would have no photos or video to remember me by.  

2.  I've gotten a few hair cuts in the past year or so and I haven't been able to find one that worked for me, even though I've done the same thing with my hair for years.  The other day I realized that it was because I didn't like the shape of my face. 

3.  I can't find clothes.  I've always had a large chest, but when it got bigger with pregnancy, then stayed bigger, and the rest of me stayed bigger too, I'm now feeling the most comfortable in XL mens t-shirts.  I love clothes and looking cute, but nothing fits right so I wear the same 3 outfits on rotation whenever I have to be seen in public.

4.  Pictures in general.  I know my #1 was about pictures, but in October one of my best friends got married and when I look at those pictures I can't believe that's what I look like.  I have untagged myself from almost every facebook photo for the past 2 years because I can't stand how I look.  

Kyle and I at Becki's Wedding

The day before Becki's Wedding

5.  I want to feel sexy again.  Enough said.

I feel like if I don't do something about this now, it's just going to get worse, and I'm going to feel worse. 

So, in complete honesty, my weight (as of Monday morning 1/3/11) was 232.6lbs.  I was 207lbs when I got pregnant and 264lbs the night I went into labor.  Short term I'd like to be back to my pre-pregnancy weight by my birthday (1/27). My goal over this next year is to get down to somewhere between 135-145lbs.

The feeling after writing that is two-fold.  One: it's embarrassing.  I mean, I know most of the people who will read this, and see them regularly.  It's embarrassing that I am that heavy, it's embarrassing that I've let myself become that much of a mess, and it's embarrassing that I haven't done anything about it until now.  But, two: it's liberating.  Now that it's out there for the world to read it's all that easier to never be that heavy again.  It's only going down from here.

Day 2 of Weight Loss Goal

It's the morning of Day 2, and I made it through Day 1!!  I drank well over 8 glasses of water, which is the norm for me, but still a positive!  The problem that I have is that I drink so much water normally that when I start a "diet" plan I don't lose that quick 10lbs of water weight the first week because I don't have it.  Which can make sticking to a plan all that harder since I don't have any instant satisfaction.  I'm trying really hard to only weight myself once a week instead of every time I go to the bathroom.  I'm hoping that if I put some real time between it then I will see results.  I didn't get to work out yesterday because by the time we got back from grocery shopping it was 10:15 and I was exhausted.  I'm using all new recipe's this week!  For tonight I have planned cider-glazed chicken with browned butter-pecan rice (from October's issue of Cooking Light magazine).  It looks AMAZING!  I think my biggest issue will be portion control - like it always is.  

In other news, Elliot is crawling!  He's been scooting backwards for a while now, but he finally figured out how to crawl forward consistently!