Thursday, January 30, 2014

Warning: don't buy a new scale.

Song of the Day: American Authors - Best Day of My Life

Awhile ago we bought an inexpensive scale, not the cheapest, but by far not the most expensive.  It was made out of "bamboo" and looked cool.  It sat next to our sink and Elliot stood/jumped on it while he brushed his teeth.  This weekend I got a 9 lb difference keeping it in the same place and just changing how I stood.  Super annoying.  So we bought a new, nicer scale.  We got The Biggest Loser one, really just because it was glass, so there's not any give in how you stand on it.  Aaannnnndd, I gained 5 lbs.  I mean not really, but now the scale reads 5 lbs more than it used to.  It kind of makes me feel better that it's the same way for Kyle, lol.  

                  Old "Bamboo" Scale
New Biggest Loser Scale

About a week and a half ago I had a massage, I thought it was going to be just relaxation because I felt fine and relaxed.  I was very very wrong.  Everywhere she touched hurt.  She worked out a ton of knots all over my body.  I spent the massage thinking about how I didn't even know what was happening in my own body anymore.  I was completely out of touch with how I actually felt.  That was a huge wake up call for me, something had to change.  On Sunday we went grocery shopping, and I decided I needed to change what I was putting in my body.   

I've started to become much more aware of what I'm eating and how it makes me feel.  I've cut out pretty much all dairy (my general idea is if Kyle can't eat it - he's deathly allergic - I won't eat it), and I severely cut down on processed foods.  Lots and lots of vegetables, fruits, nuts, and whole grains.  And I feel so much better.  I am still keeping track of my calories, because I do want to lose weight, but I also just want to feel better.  

After the massage, the scale "gifting" me 5 lbs,  and reading this awesome blog written by Katie Lowe, an inspirational woman who is looking more to just improve her life than change her number on the scale, I realized that it doesn't really matter what the scale says, because it's not a reflection about how I feel.  The entry I linked above is about her weight loss progress, but she writes a lot about changing your whole life loving your body no matter what it looks like, and having a positive outlook.  I just love it, and it's helped me not focus so much on what the scale reads, and instead how I'm feeling from day to day.

My old breakfast was a Jimmy Dean Delite sandwich or a Kashi granola bar - pretty healthy (relatively), but pretty processed, and coffee.  Now I've switched it to a smoothie.  My base is spinach and a cup of coconut water, and I add either a banana, apple slices, blueberries, pineapple - whatever piece of fruit I want.  Liquify and yum!  My favorite so far is using a banana and the Coco Cafe - Mocha coconut water (which does have some milk in it, but whatever) with the spinach.  It's delicious!  I still drink coffee somedays, but I don't feel so sluggish without it.  The rest of my day is pretty much the same.  Eating veggies and drinking lots of water or tea.  Physically I feel better, but mentally I feel even better.  It's only been about 12 days, and I let myself eat what I wanted last weekend, but I feel more aware or mindful of myself.  I feel like I have more patience with the kids, and a more positive outlook on the day.  And more energy, definitely more energy.  

Maybe it's all in my head, but whatever, if it keeps me eating healthy, that's okay :)  

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

My childhood fears came true.

Clip of the Day: Sixteen Candles - It's Your Happy Birthday

School started last week, and polar vortex part 2 is here this week.  I don't have any classes today, but I still have a ton of work to do, that I can't really do when I'm home with the kids - so we're all in school today!  Last week I turned in my application for grad school - and I'm so nervous and excited and full of anxiety!  My interview is in a couple of weeks, and I know I have a strong application, but ahhhh!!  I think some nerves are a good thing though :)  

Yesterday was my golden birthday!  Let's get one thing straight, I love my birthday, I always have.  It's the start of my next year, the next chapter in my life, a time for renewal and to look back and see where I am now.  When I was much younger, I used to be so annoyed that my golden birthday would be when I was 27, because I would be so old and wouldn't do anything fun - unlike my friend's who got to celebrate their golden birthday's between ages 10 and 22.  This weekend my parents took the kids and Kyle and I went to a few movies, ate in restaurants, went shopping, and slept in - it was pretty great.  Yesterday, I spent the day in class, discussing The Prime of Miss Jean Brodie and learning about the resting potential of neurons.  When we got home we had Papa Murphy's pizza for dinner, the kids serenaded me with the most adorable version of "happy birthday" I've ever heard, then Kyle and I had some champagne after the kids went to bed and we watched a tropical version of house hunters on On Demand.  Was it everything my 13 year old self feared it would be?  Probably, yeah, but my 27 year old self loved it.


Thursday, January 2, 2014

Happy New Year!

Song of the Day: Rob Thomas - Little Wonders

Well, after taking 10 weeks off, it's New Years, and it's time to get back on track!  I've gained 11.2 lbs back.  Ughhhh.... but hopefully some of that is water weight and will drop off pretty quickly.  Hopefully, right?  

My plan is to get back to a healthy eating routine, and to start working out again.  Sounds easy enough, right?  I'm going to go back to eating the Nutrisystem meals, at least for a while, just to keep me on track.  The foods not terrible, but it gets to be kind of repetitive after a while.  I'm also going to start putting our treadmill to use!  School doesn't start again for another two and a half weeks, so I'm hoping that I can get into the habit now, so I can keep at it once school starts.  Even though I've gained some weight back, I'm still 14.6 lbs less than I was exactly a year ago.  I'll take it, but if I don't start stepping up my game, at this rate I won't hit my target weight for another 4 years.  Which I guess is better than never, but I'd prefer if it was sooner :)

So far, so good today.  I've ate well, had a ton of water, and even cleaned up the downstairs!  We've been in and out of our house so much lately that we have a ton of stuff everywhere!  I'm hoping that I can get it all organized and put away so we can actually enjoy the 30 degree weather on Saturday! 

Happy New Year everyone!  I'm excited to see what 2014 brings!